My Journey


Parkinson’s Disease (PD) is a mimic. It is also like a snowflake, no two of which are identical. Similarly, no two PD sufferers are clinically identical despite sharing many signs and symptoms.

Once ignited, Parkinson’s can take time (up to years)to reveal itself. Symptoms occur, apparently, after a majority of cells in a part of the midbrain stop doing their job. They no longer produce enough of a vital chemical transmitter, dopamine. Dopamine inside and outside the brain speeds messages between neurons, allowing coordinated function of the body’s muscles.

My Parkinson’s was diagnosed in 2014 after months of frustrating false starts and medical dead ends.

PD is a big deal: seven to 10 million cases worldwide; an estimated 1 million in the U.S. Treatable, yes, but no cure yet and unclear cause or causes. (Possibly some combination of heredity and environmental factors, such as chemicals.) Onset is usually after age 50, but it can strike people many years younger, such as Michael J. Fox.

My story began with dreams, violent ones three years before definitive diagnosis. I would act out the dreams physically, whacking my bedmate and loving wife Struby, or throwing myself out of bed atop tables or onto the floor.

Struby said tell my doctor. I said no need and chalked it up to normal aging. For many others, the first PD sign is loss of smell. My sense of smell is fine to this day. The snowflake effect. Go figure.

Recent research has shown those action dreams (REM Sleep Behavior Disorder in medical terms) are often a telltale indication of early PD damage. The normal disconnect between brain and muscles in sleep fails to happen in those PD cases. You join the dreams with action.

It was harder to ignore what came next: the tremor in my right hand. I blamed it on an inherited and harmless family trait called essential tremor. Wrong.

My capable University of South Florida Physicians Group doctors were puzzled and worried. What could explain my stiff fingers that could no longer button shirts? What about my depression, bouts of fatigue, stiff muscles, sleeplessness, deteriorating handwriting?

Could it be vitamin B12 deficiency? Nope. Tested for and rejected.

Early in 2014, Dr. Elizabeth Warner, my then internist, asked a USF neurologist colleague to examine and run tests on my stiff, leathery and insensitive fingers.

Pay dirt. The neurologist Dr. Lara Katzen and her physician assistant Terry McClain decided in less than an hour I probably had Parkinson’s. Why? They observed my shortened gait, foot dragging, reduced arm swing, and subpar balance ability.

Case almost closed. Positive response to a certain medication often seals the deal. I did have a positive response to the dopamine replacing drug Sinemet.

PD is commonly viewed as a neuromuscular and balance disorder. Overlooked are the frequent emotional and cognitive effects, such as depression, impaired decision-making and memory problems. Dementia can be an end stage. Other diseases can prove fatal first or PD-related complications such as aspiration pneumonia lead to death.

Parkinson’s has changed my life in significant ways, not all bad. The depression caused by the PD process has been eliminated with medication. A good bit of my fatigue and muscle stiffness is lessened by drugs that replace the lost dopamine. My 90 minutes of exercise three-to-four days a week has increased my energy and made me consistently feel much better.

When asked, I estimate I am functioning at 80% of where I was before diagnosis. I

I continue to work part time and productively as Executive Director of the Florida Society of News Editors.

I completed the Parkinson’s DiseaseFoundation training to be an advocate for patients in PD research, to recruit patients for clinical research trials and to educate our community about PD. The program is called Parkinson’s Advocates in Research.

A significant barrier to PD research is getting people with the disorder to participate in clinical trials of promising new medications. If you have Parkinson’s,consider signing up to be a research volunteer.

To connect with a PD Advocate in Research such as myself (please call) (212) 923-4700, email or visit Other research resources are the Fox Trial finder at and the National Institutes of Health at

PD has deepened my religious faith through prayer and small group scriptural studies with minister Justin LaRosa. God has led me to an outreach ministry, The Portico, in downtown connecting spiritual but church-less young persons with one another and with the faith community. It is a second campus for the dynamic Hyde Park United Methodist Church.

PDF is a treatable but not curable disorder at this point. Many people live long and productive lives with it. You may have PD, but it need not define who you are unless you let it. I, like many others, aren’t giving in. We’re fighting back and supporting one another.